Getting over it

So now I'm feeling a bit better. I've put a stop to the headwrecked. Basically, I've notched it down as a fling. I mean, I thought there was more to it but the more I think about it the more I think that's all it was to him. Sad, I know, but probably true.

Anyway, now that I've gotten it out of my system (and accepted the fact that the lad was just gay!lol) I'm back in the saddle and ready for the bright year ahead. 2010 is gonna be mega.

I'm going to start running. Imagine how fit and in shape I'll be by this time next year! Firstly though I've got to get through the first week of excercise and sort out my diet.

I've also had a quick look at returning to uni as a mature student..... No real direction yet, was thinking Bakery & Entrpreneurship but now I'm thinking if I'm gonna go back then i might as well do what my heart desires!!! And that's when I got confused again.... fucks sake, what am i like?!

so that was 2009

2009 was supposed to be different, the year my life would come together. The year I was to meet my soulmate, forget of plans to travel, to fix my relationships with the women in my life and figure out what I wanted. All this, of course, according to that clairvoyant I saw, filling my head with ideas. I saw him first in March '07 and he had nailed everything at the time, then my friend wanted to go a second time in Nov '08. While I did try to back out, my attempts were weak and I went along anyway. I didn't have any important questions but his main issue to focus on was me finding my soulmate. Do I hear laughter??

that was supposed to happen in July, I met a guy in August. Who I've fallen hard for but who I barely really know. Now, isn't that ridiculous? Is it the fortune teller filling my head with ideas or is it my heart that skips a beat when I kiss him. When I kissed him. He dumped me, reckoned I liked him a bit too much and figured the unbalance wasn't fair. My head is w.r.e.c.k.e.d

Will he come back to me? Do I want him back? Is he for me? Am I for him?? Will I ever be lucky in love? Will I ever find someone to settle with? Do I even want to find that person?? One day I'd like children but will that day ever come, or will my chances pass me by because I just can't find my one true love...... Who knows what the future will hold? And this point, who WANTS to know?? Definitely, definitely, not me. the future is a mystery and so it should stay